Your New Normal

Your beauty came again through my door, like the harsh wind of the winter,
Slammed the windows of all my plans of attack
And muted my every shout, every ongoing incantation,
Blew out the candles and solidified my rituals.
 
I'm numb,
Feel weak
I'm dumb,
Fearful.
What have I done?
I raised the stakes, now can I possibly get there to save pieces of you  
In the storage unit of my mind, crossing the light,
Medium and deep blue of your eyes?
Can I dive deep enough so I can drown in you,
Hiding from myself, saving me the embarrassment
Of underestimating your play?
 
With a holy book in your hands, that I never understood too well,
You appeared so reverent, tall, radiant and true.
Calm, or just mystical, carefully embraced by its words,
You showed up much stronger this time.

It was like the diamonds of your smile traveled to Heaven and back,
And your forehead got powdered with stellar dust on the way
I looked at you, wanted to tease, laughing while dusting you off,
But you were not the same
It was something alien about your magnetic field,
Which pushed me against the walls of my human limitations.

Inside of a glass ball,
Like a pre-born child with no outside knowledge,
I now am, looking at the coded realm that's been unfolded before my eyes
And trying to learn about your new normal.

- to Mr. C.G
12.08.2020