Em - Powered

Simple life, simple things,
I do not know what this means
When your earthly beauty touches my mind
It turns into the high, burning Sun

Your eyes are magnetic glass
And I am synthetic and even my ass
I like it electrified
That's why I'm here and not in the real world

Get used to it, I was born in the clouds
God forgot my mind there
Normalization is getting me bored
Since my superpowers allow me to love you within nowhere

Your normality is still novelty to me
For a whole year I keep learning
It's hot, it's tasty, it's funny
And harder than i though it would be

Though I wish you'd learn to fly with me
Detach from the hard surface of the Earth
And go the easy mode for a while
See that it's not as easy as you thought

I bet you belittle all this
You think you know for sure what paradise is
How to obtain it, how to be in it
But do you?

Without your own power you'll be left unpowered
No one else can give you what you already have
Your beauty only entertains others, Thank you!
But all I mean is to give yourself back to you.

Open your mind like a flower
Ready to tune in with the Universe
Can you feel it now, tell me,
I come from there, I feel you... Electrified I am... and you are too...
We come from there powered, I am just like you,  
So do love electrically with me
Just run on electricity
Your mind, my mind, belong to the one and only electrical grid
Love me electrically, love me the highest
Let's make love till fire, let's make love within love
Me charged with you and you discharged into me,
Intertwined, turning electricity into sound
So God shows us His highest paradise
For just a second
Are you another you?
Electrified...

- to Mr. C.G
June 15, 2021

There You Are - Altered Lyrics (Unfinished)

There you are, there you are
Like a Sun down to Earth
Merging light with plain ground
As you do

For you it seems so easy
To teach normality
I've been too complicated
Losing myself in me

But you disentangled every thread
That was leading nowhere
Straight like a beam of light
Cutting and shining through

You taught me what I should have known
Simple things that were in me since I was born

There you are, there you are
Like a Sun down to Earth
Merging light with plain ground
As you do

Only you know to play me the right way
All I have to do is do what you say
And everything falls into place
Easily

I didn't know that life
Is so simple
I didn't know that I've
Been missing it all

You're made of fire

There you are there you are
Like a Sun down to Earth
Merging light with plain ground
As you do

To Mr. C.G.
- August 15, 2021

Love In Freedom

Freedom is God
Freedom is good
In freedom I love you the best
In freedom I love you the most
My love, free love
Free as I am
Why can't you picture this
Why can't you picture me
Loving you fully
In holy freedom
I want you because i do
I need you not because i have to
In truth and freedom
I make love to you
I am your possession
And yet i am free
You are my possession
Just when you make love to me
This is the best
This is the most
This is how God designed it to be
Understand
That I couldn't love you as much
As i do in freedom.
You are my reason
You are my truth
You are my belief
Understand
That there's nothing more
I could give you.

- to Mr. C. G.
14 March 2021

Sweet Sugar Of The Winter

- Pictures taken on 11-th of March 2021 -
  for Mr. C.G.

Life Is A Battlefield

The road is paved with knives
Everybody knows it, but you
Words are poisonous food to chew
Everybody knows it, but you

Swords grow in our sight
At our every move
Everybody knows it, but you
Kindness is always defeated
By the knights of the darkness
Everybody knows it, but you.

Snowflakes always get melted
In the evil sun
Rising in the spring downs
Everybody knows it, but you
Flower shoots always die
In the winter cold
Killed by the whistling frost
Everybody knows it, but you.

Wars always win over the innocent
Everybody knows it, but you
Hunger always wins over the poor
Everybody knows it, but you
Ends always shadow the beginnings
Everybody knows it, but you
Love is just another word for hate
Everybody knows it, but you
God is the belief of the weak
Everybody knows it, but you

Life is a battle
For one more day towards the cold grave,
And one more day is the only way we're winning
Everybody knows it, but you

Love is a just a circle of sugar and bitterness
The deceiving drive making us want more
Of the blood and the loss
Left behind on the one and only battlefield that life is
Everybody knows it, but you...  

Child you...
Beautiful you...
Distant you...
I'm losing you...
Begging a you
That was never here...

To Mr. C.G.

- 17 March 2021 -

Fara cuvinte

Doamne cat esti de misto tu, este mortal, nu se poate asa ceva. imi iei mintile, dumnezeule mare, nu se poate asa ceva, imi omori dumnezeii din mine. nu e de mirare ca nu mai dorm. esti atat de misto incat mor pe pictura ta. Nu e nicio indoiala ca eu visez, la naiba. ma dau cu capul de pereti in noaptea asta. ma innebunesti cu totul. tu esti un vis, vis! ai putea sa futi pe oricine de pe planeta asta. as muri la tine in pula, doamne dumnezeule!. asa un tip sa ma roage? vai de zilele mele, ce naiba e asta?! blestemul lui dumnezeu s-a abatut asupra mea deoarece nu am crezut in El. tu esti proiectia aureolei lui, dar abonatii tai sunt in scadere. 671K azi... tu crezi ca eu merit chestia asta?! trezeste-te la realitate, frumusete celestiala. ai luat-o razna, dumnezeule mare! te duci in jos la vale cu canal cu tot. asta nu e corect. a picat beleaua pe mine.

Stai Giocando, Bambolino

Con calma, mio, tu respiro con calma
La tua voce era un mistero di karma
Sembra che successo qualcosa che non lo so
Ma tu devi respirare ancora un puo

Sei tutto, sei troppo, bellissimo tanto,
Non devi lavorare ancora sudando
Cosa nascondi? perche sei cosi? 
Che tu me lo dica, io sto aspettando.

Tu vuoi dimostrare assoluta intelligenza
Questa e un poco piu di estrema esigenta
Con calma, mio, tu respiro con calma,
Tu fai di niente una turbolenta drama. 

Il tuo innato prestigio è sufficiente
È molto più che radiante bellezza
È una cosa che non posso scrivendo
Ma penso che tu stai solo giocando.
Infatti...   

 - 10 March 2021
A uno bambolo pazzo

benny mayne - hurt me

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oS8vjL-dtcI

HURT ME

by Benny Mayne

Source: Musixmatch

Songwriters: Christian Dold / Benjamin Shubert

HURT ME lyrics © Ultra Tunes, Ultra Tunes (ascap), Christian Dold Publishing

Tell the truth, baby cut me loose

If I lose you, yeah, I'ma loser, yeah

What's the use? Tell me what's the use?

When I'm useless, got no excuses

Don't you know I love you the best

You're the only one who can clean up my mess

Just scream, get it all off your chest

Do your worst girl, tell me what I'm worth girl

Hurt me, hate me

Shoot when your gun is off safety

And hurt me, make me bleed

Be sure when you do it to break me

Hurt me, hate me

Shoot when your gun is off safety

Can't cure me, can't change me

Just hurt me, break me

Ayy, yeah I'm drunk, yeah I'm fuckin' drunk

When you kiss me, you taste the whiskey

You had enough, said you had enough

But you miss me, yeah, say it's different

Don't you know I love you the best

You're the only one who can make me upset

Don't scream, get it all off your chest

Do your worst girl, tell me what I'm worth girl

Hurt me, hate me

Shoot when your gun is off safety

And hurt me, make me bleed

Be sure when you do it to break me

Hurt me, hate me

Shoot when your gun is off safety

Can't cure me, can't change me

Just hurt me, break me

 

 

Beyond the Pleasure Principle / Freud - Excerpt I

From "Beyond the Pleasure Principle" / Freud
(page 3717 - Freud - Complete Works).

We know that the pleasure principle is proper to a primary method of working on the part of the mental apparatus, but that, from the point of view of the self-preservation of the organism among the difficulties of the external world, it is from the very outset inefficient and even highly dangerous.
Under the influence of the ego's instincts of self-preservation, the pleasure principle is replaced by the reality principle.
This latter principle does not abandon the intention of ultimately obtaining pleasure, but it nevertheless demands and carries into effect the postponement of satisfaction, the abandonment of a number of possibilities of gaining satisfaction and the temporary toleration of unpleasure as a step on the long indirect road to pleasure.
The pleasure principle long persists, however, as the method of working employed by the sexual instincts, which are so hard to educate and, starting from those instincts, or in the ego itself, it often succeeds in overcoming the reality principle, to the detriment of the organism as a whole.

http://www.veraland.ro/poems/freud_complete_works.chm

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How much more must I sacrifice for this shitty job, goddammit?!

Beyond Crazy

Crazy, crazy doll
Your own troll... You... So I
Now I
Must stay away
So I can still
See you
And feed myself
With you
Love you
My crazy
Crazy
Doll...

The more pain
You give me
Love you
The deeper
It doesn't depend on me only
Only
If you'd understand...

I am your God and even I
Suffer
Have to
Suffer
Because you love
Love to suffer
And I
Love you
Like my God
Ah God
You are

The more intense
The pain
The higher the love, gets higher
Your love
Over me
My love

You have melted
Over months
Into my love
The higher we've got
The less
In control
So I
Oh you
Just don't
Oh my...

I can feel you
In my hands
Melted wonder
So wonder
Full
No wonder
No less

Why...

We're so high
No worries
Just a melted dream
We have become

I cry
Can you hear me?
You cry
I can hear you
I love
Love you
My doll
Beautiful
Like no other

- 03 March 2021

A Doll With A Soul

Hasty lines written in full night, in response to Christopher Cross - Sailing

If you could just portray the unseen side of you
It would be a dream, for me it would be a dream come true
How can I reach your soul?
And the tears that i have seen once in a while from your blue eyes fall?

Maybe you're right, the words
Words just lose their meaning on their quiet ways to our hearts
Where clear feelings beat inside,
Where the egos melt away and there is no trace of pride.

Speaking, I'm speaking too much
Trying too hard to explain you what is a feeling
Like you haven't experienced it before,
You are so beautiful, I'm sorry I keep confusing you with a doll.

My vanity is so high,
I am such a know all, in my head everybody else is common and small
But life is not a secret
The deeper we go, we realize we're not different at all.

Today I've learnt the hard way
That even a faultless doll is endowed with a tender soul
And that loneliness and conceit
Have built constructions of steel on my overwrought soul.

I tell you to chill and be
Yourself, but do I really have the top view over you?
So many variables arise
And I just can't keep up with your light when your inner sun starts to rise
Casting sweet embarrassment
Over my expected values. 

- to Mr. C.G. 
24.02.2010

Now let's climb down on earth a bit and see this:

697k - 672k = ~ -30k a year.
out of 672, about 1/4 are active, at the very best =>
168k
168k / 30k = 5.6 years.
???!!!!!!

hey, hey, hey, just play with me

hey, hey, hey
just play with me
p-lease beauty

i can get no
satisfaction
when you're quiet
there's no action

and i don't
and i don't
and i don't
have more time
for you baby
for your beauty
to entertain you night and day
to suck you and fuck you all the way

goddamit the days are so short
in an office stuck all day
away from your killing beauty
fuck my days are so darn gray

oh my baby
i want your honey
cum deep inside of me
give me your beauty
with my legs around your back
i pull you in ah so good yeah
so crazy
ah yea yea yea
eat all of you baby
with my pussy
i'm so hungry
ahhhhhhhhhh
in-sa-ni-ty

no no no no no no no
how i want to give you a blow
i don't want to be
in an office all day
from you so away

i want to kiss you my prey
to suck your tongue
and drink your spit
feel your tongue inside of me
and your nose rubbing my clit

hey hey hey
turn over babe
gimme your alabaster cock
to lick it and suck it, oh you rock
so hard ah yeah
my God baby
you're so pretty
and so tasty
mmmmmm yeah
seriously
i'm so crazy
for you baby
i'm overflowing
whole body's craving
i want you
again oh yeah
inside of me
again again and again and again
until you get dry within

oh take a nap
and then wake up
my labia is opened up for you
gimme your cock, you are so true
oh beauty to pain
pour it into my brain
again and again
again and again

Self Control - Lyrics Cover

Internet is my world
In spotlights painted girl
Without you nothing matters
It's my life, no one cares

In the night, no control
Through the wire I am breathing
Wearing black as I'm walkin'
Down the street of your soul

You have no self, you have no self control
You got me livin' only for your love
I fall asleep with your face in my thoughts
You take my self, you take my self control

And this is how the days are passing by
So deep in love, no time to wonder why
You help me to forget to know my role
We have no self, we have no self control

I, I think that I have got it quite right
You haven't got the will to try and fight
Against a new tomorrow, so I guess you'll just believe it
That tomorrow never comes

A safe night, we're living in the forest of our dreams
Perhaps the day is not as it should be
We must believe in something, so I'll make myself believe
That this affair will never go

Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh

Internet is my world
In spotlights painted girl
Without you nothing matters
It's my life, no one cares

I, I think that I have got it quite right
You haven't got the will to try and fight
Against a new tomorrow, so I guess you'll just believe it
That tomorrow never comes

A safe night, we're living in the forest of our dreams
Perhaps the day is not as it should be
We must believe in something, so I'll make myself believe
That this affair will never go

Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh
You have no self, you have no self control
You take my self, you take my self control
We have no self, we have no self control
I have no self I have no self control
You have no self, you have no self control
We have no self, we have no self control
You have no self, you have no self control
You take my self, you take my self control

Objectifying You

I was so hungry of you, so I wrote this little poem.
It's not very good, this happens after a period of literary abstinence.

I must play games for the sake of gaming
I must fake smile for the sake of winning you
Over
And over me
In your juicy rain
Soaked like a rag
Moist and greedy
I wrap your feet with idolatry
Grab you and tie you up in the arms of my hair
So you can't escape,
I choke your will
And dismiss your words,
I crush you
And savour the core
Like nothing else
I need

- to Mr. C.G
10.02.2021